Aahahah love....right

OK yeah i know iam young...but who gives a fuck? Its like werid becuz everytime someone gets together something happens they fight an brake up .....so what is love? WEll when u fucking fall in it you fall deep its like falling into a deep hole that you cant dig ur self out of. I mean you try to live with it awhile but then something gos rong and you start to slowly die inside after you lose the only person that matterd. But its like awesome whenever you got someone its like time seems not to exist anymore. You cant eat cant sleep. And whnever you do the frist thing u think about is him. Then you have to call him just to see if hes thinking about u. Or if he feels the same way. I dunno maybe im scard i dont wanna die alone. Its like everytime i see old ppl walking and holding hands its sooo cute and i think to myself what if i end up dieing alone. I pike these horrible guys that want me to fuck me then leave me or do me rong im sick of it just once i want sumone decent!!!!Sex is good and everything just dont mean anything unless u mean how u feel bout the person. Is it too much to ask for a decent guy? to love me the way iam? Bad things and good or iam i dreaming?